Soul Living

It has been a year since I made the conscious decision to live in my soul and not my ego. Since then, I have had a number of people ask, “How do you do that?” or “What’s that?”

At the end of this first year, I have still not distilled totally what it means, but I do know how it feels. Delightful and light and easy and balanced and calm. All things I find most folks are hoping to achieve.

It came about when I took a webinar with a woman who said that our soul knows everything we need to know. That was a fascinating concept to me. I decided to simply believe that and see where it took me. Then I began rereading the Bhagavad Gita. I know I have mentioned here that I read it initially about twenty years ago.  I am still reading daily and would like to report that I should finish by summer. It is not an easy read and I often need to reread and then read it one more time. I have no idea what I read twenty years ago, but it definitely was not what I am currently reading.  Same book. Different me.

The Gita is an allegory about a war. The war between your ego and your soul. Rather synchronist that I chose to revisit it at the same I time I chose my soul experiment. I love when a plan comes together.

Living in your soul is easy if you are willing to give up judgement, reaction, disbelief and control. It is a bit dicey at the outset as it is tempting to go back to the old, familiar habits, but hanging in there and calling yourself on your behavior has rewards I did not expect.

There is a peace that exists in my world. It is not indifference, but rather a knowing that the only thing I control is my reaction. It is not giving up or quitting or retreating into myself. If anything, I feel more a part of the world surrounding me than ever before.

 A few months in the project I realized that my husband had been my guru. He was the most Zen, gun-loving guy you could ever hope to meet. His calm and acceptance of life was annoying to me for years, but luckily for me, he never changed and I came to see the wisdom of the world in which he lived. It is a wonderful place.

I have always thought I arrived on this planet to bring happiness or joy. Even my astrologer friend said I came here to bring joy. The misstep or one could phrase it as “learning process” I experienced was I thought I was supposed to make people happy or show them how to be happy. A month ago, I read in the Gita that only your soul can experience true happiness – Not your body (or as I love to refer to it – your meat puppet costume).

So, I am back at work. This time I am going for you souls people.  Watch out – I still have time.