Trojan Head

The imagery that came to mind as I drove was of me as a giant wig mannequin. Just the head and a touch of shoulder but enlarged to room size.

I saw myself walking around it. Interested in what was going on inside. If I really took the time to dive in, what would I find?

“Me” was the answer.

Why the need to make it bigger than life? Why would it be better to examine it from the outside and have it be a size where I could see all the nooks and crannies?

From my current space I am spending time looking forward and reflecting back. I am inhabiting the present but having it be informed by the other space time continuum of somewhere out there or back there.

It is like a jigsaw puzzle in that many of the pieces appear to fit in lots of places, yet only truly belong in one. Where are the borders? Where is the edge?

The advantage of looking back is you can see how decisions impacted your life. You can see the roads chosen and where they have led. The journey can seem circuitous and yet rather straight forward. The distance traveled can feel longer or seem much more direct than was experienced in real time. Reopening events can be enlightening when seen from different lighting and vantage points. Perceived hurts, slights, failures can be reevaluated. Triumphs can be reassessed.

What is the point in any of it? For those that choose a life examined it is a freeing exercise which allows for judgements to be dropped and conclusions to be rethought. It is good to restructure from time to time.

Plus, if you have a giant head, think of how many imaginary “you’s” could live inside, just waiting outside the gates to conquer as you slumber. Perhaps we all walk around with a Trojan Head and we do not know the “enemies” residing within.